NAAVoices was not created from certainty, but from lived experience and professional insight. As I migrate earlier work from the original platform, this post has been reviewed and approved for transfer. It remains true to its original context, with only minor clarity edits where needed. Some moments do not require rewriting to remain honest.

Slept on the sofa as Toddler was woken by the snoring. He had a client this morning for an hour, and then surprise he is asleep again, or has he hit the alcohol, or drugs. Either way I spend 3 hours trying to get hold of him to check he will be there to collect the toddler from school. Crazy to think I am having to rely on a teen to check if he is awake. He messaged me this morning to ask if I hate him, you see no matter what he does he then tries to turn things. He does not believe that even if drugs were not involved that I would be ‘nice’ to him. So far this afternoon I have been ‘a fucking bitch’ when I eventually got through to him and ‘you’re a liar’ ‘fuck you’ ‘I got up to my alarm.’ This is all because he needs to collect our child whilst I am working to pay a mortgage. Also, quite funny that I had a notification that our internet restrictions for ‘adult content’ has been deactivated as he disappeared (restricted for the teens).  My problem is he wont leave or come off the mortgage, despite the fact he has not contributed a penny to it! Now I must head home to pick up after him, feed the teens and sort everyone ready for tomorrow.