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Why I Write
A survivor’s testimony documenting coercive control and police failures, the timeline she built to protect her children, and a call to prioritise child safety.
When Trauma Shatters Your Coping Strategies: How PTSD Changes Everything for the ADHD Brain
I managed ADHD for 34 years without support. Then trauma hit, and every strength became a liability. This is what happens when PTSD rewires an ADHD brain — and how I learned to survive it.
The Accountability That Never Comes from West Mercia Police
May 28, 2024. A date burned into my memory. The day everything I thought was safe crumbled. The day the anti-corruption team arrived at my workplace. I had no idea that standing up against police misconduct would trigger such panic. Or that it would spread through a department so deeply embedded in a culture of
Living Behind the Mask: My Journey with PTSD
There’s a particular kind of exhaustion that comes with surviving trauma — not just the initial impact, but the daily reality of living in a world that no longer feels safe. For me, trauma arrived in two devastating waves. The first was domestic abuse that shattered my sense of home. The second was police corruption
Finding Strength Amidst Chaos and Control
A deeply honest reflection on surviving long‑term psychological abuse while trying to stay grounded, protect a child, and hold on to a sense of self. This piece explores the exhaustion of constant manipulation, the weight of family court, and the quiet moments—like watching the stars from a layby—that offer brief peace in the middle of…
The Friday Everything Broke
After my coercive control case was dropped and police corruption became undeniable, I collapsed at work. This is what despair after re-traumatisation really looks like — and why it is never a sign of weakness.
ADHD, RSD and Coercive Control: A Survivor’s Guide to Understanding and Awareness
In July 2023 I was diagnosed with Combined Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. For the first time in my life, everything made sense. I had never realised that the constant internal restlessness I lived with was hyperactivity. I did not know it could present this way, but it is common in women and girls. I had
Big Hearts: A Four-Year-Old, a Stranger, and a 60-Mile Round Trip
A chance encounter with a homeless artist in a car park turned into one of the most powerful lessons in empathy I’ve ever witnessed — all led by my four-year-old son. This is what kindness looks like when no one teaches it.
The Cost of Speaking Truth: A Year That Changed Everything
December 27, 2024 I found myself thinking about the past year this morning, and what might come next. It’s been nearly seven months since Professional Standards and Anti‑Corruption turned up at my workplace. I had no idea what was coming, and I certainly didn’t expect my life to be turned upside down all over again.
The Heartache of Time Lost: A Journey Through Isolation and Healing
A personal story of losing precious years with my grandma due to coercive control, the grief that followed, and the slow journey back to family, safety, and self.
